I read this AWESOME quote today from Dr. Caroline Leaf, a cognitive neuroscientist, who specializes in the mind-brain connection. My close friend, Ashley, Introduced me to Dr. Leaf- a vessel of truth who interconnects God’s spirit-filled word with science. (Follow her on Instagram!)
Every type of emotion has one of two roots- love or fear. They cannot coexist. – Dr. Caroline Leaf
This very quote made me think about why I am so passionate about living the healthiest life I can. My journey started in 2006 when I had a major health scare. I was diagnosed with melanoma after having a very suspicious mole removed. I was 23-years-old with skin cancer. The diagnosis I received shook me to the core, and reminded me that I was not invincible. I was super fortunate to have one surgery, and it the cancer was taken care of. The physical disease was out, but an extremely unhealthy (dare I say “diseased”)mindset started taking over my previously happy-go-lucky self. As a coping mechanism, I took up habits to try to control my situation. I became extremely anxious, super health conscious, drinking 3 cups of green tea for the antioxidents, daily smoothies, etc. All of my new ‘healthy’ practices weren’t bad, but my motivation wasn’t rooted in striving for optimal health, rather I was bound by fear. Fear of disease, and even more crippling, I had a life-gripping fear of dying. Unfortunatly, that fear was totally robbing me from truly living.
Fast forward a few years when I found a lump in my breast. I was 26-years-old, and I was terrified. Here we go, all over again. A biopsy revealed the lump was benign (so thankful), and the physician who diagnosed it told me there could be a link between my birth control pills (hormones) and the benign tumor. Again, my world was rocked and I was scared. I was left wondering how my young body was so sensitive and susceptible to disease.
A year or so later when we were ready to try for a baby, I had already convinced myself that my body was “broken” before we even tried to conceive. (I could have really benefited from staying in counseling a LOT longer!) Nonetheless, conceiving wasn’t an easy feat for us. Our “trying” process was more than trying. I was defeated. I felt like I was living in this broken body avoiding this and that, telling my husband to stop using his laptop computer on his lap because it would lower his “you know what” count, etc. Anything I was able to control, I would try to. The reality was: I WAS COMPLETELY OUT OF CONTROL.
It wasn’t until my first miscarriage in 2010 that I surrendered it all. The miscarriage was horrible, yes, but it was also my wake-up call. I had changed my diet, my lifestyle, etc., and we still miscarried a little baby. While I FIRMLY believe that all of those positive lifestyle changes I made improved my quality of life in multiple ways, I realized that throughout our baby-making process, I was captivated by fear.
After our successful pregnancy and birth of our first son is when I found the passion to become a certified holistic health coach. I want to empower women to be their best self. Instead of scaring people into a healthy lifestyle, I want to hold their hands and walk them into freedom. I don’t want people to be motivated by fear like I was, rather remain rooted in love. Love for their body, for their unique calling, and most importantly, loved by their Maker.
I know there is much I cannot control, but I want to set myself and my family up for our best shot at a healthy and happy life. That is my mission. That is anthem. Where love abides, fear must flee.
Today, I also practice thanking God for my health and I declare health over my body, rather than believing I am coming from a place of lack. Thank you Jesus!
God is love. When we take up permanent residence in a life of love, we live in God and God lives in us. This way, love has the run of the house, becomes at home and mature in us, so that we’re free of worry on Judgment Day—our standing in the world is identical with Christ’s. There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgment—is one not yet fully formed in love. [1 John 4: 17-18, MSG]
My mission for Feel Healthy Girl is that you will feel empowered, inspired, and believe that you are fully known and loved by the creator. Just. As. You. Are.